slowly creeping up.
its synonymity with issues and roadblocks have made it hard to realize whether it is just another event that is yet to be passed. or is it a personality issue that stems from myself.

This.Too.Shall.Pass.

the fact that sometimes we can care about someone else and be so concerned about how they are, way more than you would care about your own self. 

Amazing as in fascinating. But this could turn dangerous. So always stop and always re-assess your actions.

Then you’re probably just hungry. go eat.
And all will be fine. 

It’s an issue.

A problem that i never thought i would ever encounter at this stage of life. It’s a juxtaposition of being almost halfway of where i actually want to be, and impatience. Not to mention a feeling of not giving much of a fuck started to mingle with this juxtaposition about a month go. Mainly because i am pursuing and spending thousands on a measly degree that i have no use for. Yet i am a few months away from finishing it.

So might as well go to the finish line if you’re halfway, and get it over with. right? Normally, i’d say no. But i’ve sacrificed shit loads of opportunities to finish this fucking degree and I cannot wait until it’s over with. I don’t even care to go to actual graduation ceremony. I just want it to be done.

Sociology and Philosophy can get me any fucking where. But that “Any fucking where” is basically within any institution. I’ll be working for someone else. so forget that.

My opportunity cost of continuing university education at this very moment has been sacrificed. I could have started a small business, continued music production and start other many start ups and cash flow projects on the side. 

Not to say that i haven’t learned anything in school. i actually did. but most of it are knowledge that couldn’t be really applied into what i actually want to pursue. but it’s still a little beneficial. 

My main issue with attending school, writing papers, researching, travel time, studying time and writing exams is time. I cannot get a second of it back.

I’ll update when i’m done this degree.

till then, peace.

in the name of the almighty, most high, the king of all kings, the most patient, most merciful, the greatest of all things made; why am i confused on where to go in life when the answer may be right in front of me?

is it that i need glasses? funny story, i was actually thinking of buying new ones. But is that it? or is the confusion part of the mystery and the future hard work that will occur in order for me to discover what was truly waiting for me?

i wonder if i die, will they hear my mother scream? will everyone be pissed off and in loss for a soul that they once knew, hugged and spoken to? will it be a part of history  and herstory? did i accomplish enough for my death to be a part of every one’s sadness? 

Just by writing this, the egotistical maniac alter ego is becoming more visible with my naked eye. he’s the only one that is thinking about himself when i die. he’s thinking about what people may say about him, may not like about him. he’s constantly concerned. and he was in full effect during the previous paragraphs. then again i love him. he is a part of me. he was the only one that repeated: “fuck living dormant. should die enormous”. yeah he’s a Jay-z fan. But regardless of his material consciousness, he saved me from settling for less.

hi, i’m his rational alter ego. we probably met before. i tried convincing him to settle for less because it’s realistic, but he doesn’t want to listen. before i came onto this paragraph for you to read, i’ve done some preparations before his third alter ego comes out; the careless alter ego. oh wait, fuck this. Why is this even being typed? yeah call me careless. no i don’t shake hands, high-5? syke! nah i’m just clowning you. you’re probably thinking, where did the rational one go? well he went to meditate or some shit, it’s one of his weaker sides. i’m quite strong right about now but i know that i he’s been saying he needs to get rid of me. well while i got my 15 minutes of fame, let me go ape shit on everyone. i’ve done alot though. i’d type them out but i’m lazy. whoa…there he goes back on rational. bye!

…what the fuck just happened.

Wait. that’s haram.

Get your tickets while they last.

http://IFreeCan.com/Warsan

Now don’t make Life and Sleep jealous since you’re not as bad.

People love having you over.